A story of a little boy

Oh, what a beautiful day to be at the beach on a distant land. The sounds of the ocean echo as far as the eyes can see. Many of the younger children are playing in the sand next to the heavy surf. They are having a care free time while the older children start to gather them up for the continuation of their journey with the Guardian. The Guardian loves all his children and they call Him Daddy (and the world knows Him as Jesus Christ). On that sunny day, Daddy notices that there is a new comer in the group – a little boy with a cumbersome blue backpack stuffed with all his personal belongings. This boy is so young that he can barely walk. So, He sends one of his little ones with a heart of an angel to help him – a little girl not much older than the boy.

As the day gets shorter and Daddy calls out to everyone to following Him as they continue on their walk to another distant land. Some of the children play with each other as they walk and other simply help keep a watchful eye on the little ones. At the back of the group, the little boy struggles to keep up with rest of the children. His weak little feet only allow him to go so fast and his heavy backpack is slowing him down even move. The little girl tries to help him by holding his hand and teaches him on what Daddy had taught her on how to walk the rough sands on the beach.

As the two walk together, the little girl notices that this little boy likes to speak his mind and not afraid to be honest. She sees that the boy’s heart is eager to learn, but his mind doesn’t completely understand everything – he is so young but has great potential. The little boy also notices that the girl with the golden heart loves to listen. He knows that Daddy will not send someone that will harm him and so, he starts to trust the little girl with his heart and tells her everything. Soon, they became dear friends.

In spite of this friendship, the little girl does not have the strength to prevent the little boy from stumbling and cutting his knees. The boy feels bad for holding her back and sees that she is starting to long for fellowship with the other children in the front of the group. And so, he let goes of her hand and tells her to go play. She turns towards him with a simile and says that she will be back. Shortly afterward, a storm brews within the little boy and he starts to cry.

Daddy hears this boy’s cry and He goes and asks him what is wrong. The young boy replies, “I’m very tire <sniff><sniff>... and my knees hurt ... and I’m scare ... <sniff> ... where is my dear friend?”

Daddy then smiles. ...“Don’t be afraid,” he said. “Take courage, I am here!” Matthew 14:27 (NLT)

He takes the backpack off the little boy and says this to all his children ... “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.” Matthew 11:28-30 (NLT)

Then Daddy picks the little boy up into His arms. Instinctively, the boy starts looking around for his dear friend, but Daddy clams him down and says, “Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? And if worry can’t accomplish a little thing like that, what’s the use of worrying over bigger things? ... So don’t be afraid, little flock. For it gives your Father great happiness to give you the Kingdom.” Luke 12:25-26&32 (NLT)

Then Daddy wants to share some wisdom with his children and so He sits down on a large rock and places the little boy on one of His lap. As Daddy gathers up the children around Him, the little girl come running back to the little boy to see how he is doing. Daddy picks her up as well and places her on His other lap and whisper to the boy, “trust Me.”

To all His children He teaches:

My child, never forget the things I have taught you.
   Store my commands in your heart.
If you do this, you will live many years,
   and you life will be satisfying.
Never let loyalty and kindness leave you!
   Tie them around your neck as a reminder.
   Write them deep within your heart.
Then you will find favor with both God and people,
   and you will earn a good reputation.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart;
   do not depend on your own understanding.
Seek his will in all you do,
   and he will show you which path to take.
Proverbs 3:1-6 (NLT)

Afterward, night falls comes and everyone starts to prep for sleep. The little boy gives a gentle tug on Daddy’s shirt and says, “I pray that when I grow up, I want to be like You, Daddy – to love others the same way You do.” Daddy then looks at His little one and gives him one more lesson for the day:

Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand it s own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. ... Three things will last forever – faith, hope, and love – and the greatest of these is love. Corinthians 13:4-7&13 (NLT)

The little boy with his big round eyes can only stare at Daddy with amazement. He now knows what it means to love like Daddy and he is eager to be like Him. Knowing what His little one is thinking, Daddy then announces the following to everyone ... “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross, and follow me.” Matthew 16:24 (NLT)

... And all the children with one voice cries out Amen!

Need Rest

God, please ... I beg of You ... please let me rest.

Discovering Oneself

Every so often, I discover something new about myself. I’m changing little by little ... piece by piece ... because God now play a major role in my life. Yes, I do wonder “what if” I did not choose this path ... and I do not regret it ... actually, I’m glad that I have found Him.

There are more details ... but I will save them for next time.

You've Got Mail

At the end of the work day, I finally got a chance to read some of my mail ... and to my surprise, Chica sent something special. I hope she knows that I’m not mad at her.

Actually, I was more upset about myself for not being able to resist in asking her out ... even when my body is broken from that massive amount of running around (literally) and lack of sleep from the weekend.

Well, I going to sleep ... good nite my Chica.

BTW Chica, you are all that and more ... you are very special ... I just hope you feel the same about me. =)

My Lady

She calms my storms ...
    She gives me strength ...
        She makes me happy ...
            She <3 me ...
                She is a gift from God =)

Uprooted part duel

On a second thought, maybe this is the swift kick (right on my butt ... ouch!!!) that I need to move out. My 5 years are about to be up ... and I think it is time to take the next step. Change is scary (oh yea ... terrifying), but it can also be a good thing ... I guess I need to grow up. =)

I will continue to pray for guidance ...

BTW ... this weekend, there were 3 silver CRV’s parked near each other ... today, there were 3 silver CRV’s driving next to each other on the same lane ... hehe ... it looks like a Honda commercial =P

Uprooted

I’m going to turn into geek of a sec ... statistically, the amount of time you spent with a person can directly be related to the distance between you and that person. The closer you are to that person (distance wise), the easier for each other to visit ... that is confirmed from my past experience.

News about someone (especially someone I care very much) potentially moving is usually sad news for me because I do not want to see less of this person.

So ... God, what is Your will? ... What should I do?

Praise the Lord

In a brief moment today, my mind went south. I was stuck in one of those “what if” playback loop and I hated that moody feeling. I hated myself ever more for even going to that dark place in the first place ... and so I asked for help from my God. Over and over, I kept on praying ... and gradually everything got better.

He came and relieved my burden (^o^) ... and that is so awesome because without Him, I know I will drive myself crazy for the rest of the day and may even do something stupid. He saved me ... Thank you my Lord m(_)m

Baby steps

From the movie “What About BOB?” ... I’m “baby stepping” each task ... placing a check mark next to each item as I complete them =)

Furthermore, I’m asking God about which direction should I take next ... work ... education ... even about my hair. I got lots of prayer items ... and yet I feel so free ;)

Sun, Blue and =D

Working outside is great (^o^)

... and now my Chica’s car is shining blue ... ahh, so bright!!! ... I need my shades (@_@)

And Happy b-day MOM, you are the best!!!

Heartache

Originally, I was not going to post much ... I don’t like to talk about death ... I want to see the lighter side of things, but God has a way in showing me how life is short and that everyday is precious. The phrase here today, gone tomorrow seems fitting for this blog. So, here is everything ... in sad details.

Two funerals in less than a week apart are a bit much to take that all in. I probably will cry once it hits me ... a.k.a. the bubble burst.

One was my cousin’s daughter ... 3 years younger than me ... died all of a sudden. Family members told me what the cause of death was ... but I don’t remember the technical term ... the bottom line is that her heart stopped. As a side note, she recently got baptized. Her death was very sudden ... many relatives saw her the week before and she was her normal self. It was like getting hit by a bus (if you can image). What was even sadder is that her mother (my cousin) died almost 20 years ago ... and now – mother and daughter – are buried in the same plot (yes, each plot can fit 2).

The other one was the mother of my old high school friend. I have been friends with this buddy for almost 15 years ... and counting. Cancer is the primary cause ... his mother died in her sleep at the hospital with her daughter by her side. I have never seen my friend cry ... not like this. The lost of a mother ... a love one ... it is heartbreaking.

I tried to put myself in their shoes ... my relatives ... my old buddy ... and that feeling scares me. I don’t want to go to that dark place – it hurts too much. At both funerals, I kept on thinking about the past ... the good old times ... when I was flying paper airplanes with my cousin and her daughter on a warm summer afternoon in their backyard... or when my friend’s mom telling us that we can hang out – to do what kids do.

And finally this afternoon, all I wanted is to see Chica ... she makes me happy. But instead, I decided to stick with my friend after the funeral for lunch ... thinking that I can somehow comfort him ... and then meet up with Chica later. Knowing that my bud is in good hands, I went back to work for the remainder of the day.

Afterward, I found out that Chica almost fainted during lunch ... and it was chaotic for her ... and her boss drove her home. In a way, I wish I skipped the lunch and kept with my original plan to see her ... maybe then I could be there for her. I know, I know ... it is not a big-big deal ... but, after all these unfortunate events, everything else feels so surreal ... and with me not being there for her ... my heart aches even more. I love her!!!

This past few days has made me think a lot about life and death ... and my conclusion is that God has His ways ... and I trust Him ... and I pray that He will ease the suffering of those who lost love ones.

Surprise!

As you walk into your home ... doing your usual thing ... and all of a sudden, you hear Surprise!!! (^o^) Happy Birthday!!!

Great job to the 2 hostesses of the party =)