No Overtime

Wow ... I feel so much better ... I don’t remember the last time I have this much free time ... even time to relax (^o^)

Milestone

This milestone is more of a little note for me to look back upon ... my faith is growing stronger in God ... sure, I make a lot of mistakes on my way here ... and am sure that I will make more mistakes later ... but I feel comfortable in knowing that my mistakes will not stop Him from loving me. Even the relationship between me and my family are changing ... I believe it is getting better between me and my sister ... I’m not as sensitive as before and I’m willing to listen ... and moreover, I not feel the urge to need rescue her from her difficulties ... especially when I do not have an answer ... and therefore I’m not as frustrated as I was in the past. As for my Chica ... I believe we are growing closer ... she is starting read what I’m thinking ... sometime I believe she tries to anticipate my moves and mood ... and for the most part, she hits the bulls eye ... and other times, she misses ... hehe ... same for me ... I believe we are both still learning about each other ... on what we want, need, and how to compromise ... on how to create a God centered interdependent relationship with each other. Speaking about learning ... I realize early today that I will not ever stop learning ... God has so much to teach and every lesson lets us all grow.

It is funny that there is one lie that I have trouble letting go ... and the lie is that I can ... and need to be perfect in my action and emotion ... and for every mistake I make, I feel the need to punish myself ... or to feel guilty that I failed God ... my family ... and even my Chica. I even have guidelines from workbooks to follow ... and I feel bad for not meeting all the criteria in actions and emotions. Today at Sunday school, someone mentions that we tend to judge ourselves more harshly. Yep ... that is me ... and I followed that lie ... the need to be perfect ... but NO more ... the truth is that God loves me no matters what ... no one is perfect ... but I hope to grow ... I pray that we all grow with God.

Fun Fact 101

In the kitchen next to the backyard, my family can hear (and count the number of) sneezes from my father while he is mowing the front lawn with a gas powered lawnmower ... “A-chu!!!” ... “God bless you!” ... wow, that was loud =PPP

Thanks!

Thank You God for Chica ... every time I see her, I see You in her & Your abundant love overflowing from her. You, my God has shown me a great deal ... and with every lesson You teach me, I grow ... I can feel the difference ... and I hope others can see Your love through me too.

Thank you Chica for taking care of me ... you are a true sweetheart ... overflowing with joy and laughter ... God has blessed you a peaceful mind and a loving heart ... and it is my honor to have you in my life. <3

Thank you to my family ... for loving me and for showing me that have room to grow in all directions ... now, I wish share with you what God has shown me ... I pray that one day that you will see that light that shines so bright.