Acceptance

Do you ever feel like an outsider, surrounded by different groups? Well ... welcome to my life. I’m an American Born Chinese (ABC) --- a.k.a. Twinkies. I know both worlds well, but I’m never truly accepted by either one ... except by a few close friends. I’m what they called, a bamboo --- “two sides not open” --- in between notches. Moreover, there are conflicts from within me ... and I have been looking for a place, a principle, a religion, a group, a person ... that will bring me peace. Now, I’m hoping that the Bible can be my sanctuary. Got to have patience... That is why I’m a bit upset today ... read on...

Today, I felt great ... that is until I went to Church. I’m new to the ways of the Church and so I asked if they usually drink wine (grape juice) and break bread. My new Christen friend said “yes ... but you should just past the tray along since you are an unbeliever.” When she said that, it hits me hard and it hurts. I overreacted and left, but I can’t help feeling that she categorized me as an outsider --- brought back some very bad memories.

Will I be accepted for who I am? ... Will I find peace?

It is true that I do not know much and I do not claim to be a Christen, but I’m committed in reading the whole Bible and in trying to see the light ... and when the time comes, what ever happens shall happen. Anyway, in a little while, I will back to normal and this will be in the past. Afterward, I will like an ass for writing this and I pray to have better control over my emotions.