Blitz

During World War II (WWII), the Germans conducted their campaigns in short, intensive offensive attacks called blitzkrieg ... which means lightning (blitz) war (krieg) ... and yes, I know this because I watch way too much TV ... the History Channel, Discovery, The Learning Channel (TLC) and many more. (@_@)


Now why am I telling you this ... well, because I in the middle doing a blitz myself ... not war ... only lightning. Every so often, I focus all my energy on one thing ... and submerging into that one task until nothing else is notable. However, I can only last for a short amount of time ... until I burn-out. This week, I worked a total of 53.5 hours. I think I did more work during this one week than I did in the past month.

Early this week, I was a bit “moody” (a.k.a. bad mood) ... or more accurately – frustrated =( ... there is no exact cause for it ... nor do I know exactly ... it just happens ... it is part of life I guess. For the most part I back to normal =) ... but for that other little piece of me, I felt kinda gloomy ... like I’m missing something ... or someone. With all the work I did, I’m content with the result ... but I missed the excitement (you can read this from so many different point of views).

Feeling ... it is hard to describe because everyone interprets it differently. Like right now, I’m still looking for direction in life. I feel an urge to move ahead ... to take the next step because me life is too comfortable. In order for me to grow, I need to “embrace the challenge” (as someone told me once). Everyday, I keep my ears and eyes open for new opportunities ... and everyday I ask God ... “what should I do?”

Maybe I’m working so much overtime because I wanted some distraction from someone ... =P

Or maybe I wanted to finish this pain-in-the-butt project so I can leave without guilt. Less than a year ago, I wanted to leave this project ... the bureaucratic red-tapes and nature of the project was driving me up the wall. To cut through those red-tapes, I rolled up my sleeves and did most of the dirty work myself ... you may ask what is so “dirty” ... well, try crawling on all four and having your face touching coffee stained carpet ... who knows what else is on a public carpet. Ironically, after I requested a transfer back then, my boss said that since I’m doing most of the work, why not manage that part of the project. Me? ... as a manager? ... well, look at me now ... a “manager” – sure does not feel like one ... and I’m still crawling on all four ... today!!!

Anyway, as I blitz ... my five years is almost up ... so, what is next in life? (?_?)