Regret

It is sometime after midnight and all I feel is regret ... regret for what I said to Chica on Thursday ... I was trying to vent and I took out my frustration on her...

Here is a funny thing ... took Chica advice about putting more faith in God ... and on that Thursday, I knew my anger is slowing surfacing ... and all I can mumble over and over is “God, please help me” ... I think some people thinks that I’m talking to the computer again ... of course, I blew up on the phone and Chica was the casualty ... that was not so funny...

I’m feeling better as of right now ... more level headed ... I just wish that I did not have my dark side ... I hate when I hurt someone that I love ... and Chica was so happy that day ... she had high hope for the weekend ... and all in the swift swoop, I ruined it. =(

There is still a dilemma and I need to sit down and talk it over with Chica ... and the problem is on my end and I’m trapped ... so oh mighty God, please help me ... I’m weak and I don’t know what to do.

Please forgive me, Chica. m(_)m