Eureka!!! God did answer my question! ... and it was in front of my face the whole time. How could I miss it ... Chica told so me many times and yet it did not click till now ... God does work through people ... and she is definitely one of God’s angel. She told me that it is not in God’s will to make someone do something that he/she is not ready for. Today, this hits me hard (like tuning on a light bulb) while I took rest after reading the His words.
With the disciple workbook and the all the Bible reading I did over my break ... my head was winded up tight ... so tight that I felt that I am unqualified, so ill-equipped and unworthy to be His disciple. Well of course I’m not ready at this moment ... and further more, I do not know why I felt the need to forsake everyone I ever loved in order to follow Him. Yes, His original disciples did leave their livelihood in order join His quest ... but they did it with love!!! ... not for duty and certainly not for guilt. Moreover, He does not tell us to love Him only ... instead, He commands us to love each other too. Jesus is all about love ... and I know He will never want His followers to forsake love because He is the ultimate example of love for loving us.
Looking back, it is silly for me to be so hard on myself ... it is a blessing to love my family and friends ... and it is especially special to have Chica love me as much as I do for her. I see the big picture!!! I’m not blind anymore ... we all need to love Him first so we can have a solid foundation (the Rock) and to learn from Him ... so we can show our love for each other ... just like how He love us. If we can learn to love like Him ... even a fraction of His enormous love ... I believe the world will be a better place. And when I’m ready to take on His “big” mission ... I’m positive that He will arm me with the wisdom, courage and, most importantly, the love that I need.
God loves me and all of us ... and I praise Him for His unconditional love ... a source of great joy and blessing for many of us. Thank You Jesus =)
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so glad for that..."Was blind but now I see"...=)
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