In the past, I had dreams in finding a person that will save me from all my problems ... to support me in times of need ... someone that I can depend on. Now, I morn the death of my old self and my deeply rooted dreams.
The only one that I can absolutely depend on is Jesus Christ ... He is the rock and on that rock, I hope that Jesus will create new me.
I have a confession to make ... I’m in love with the little girl in the story. She makes me smile, laugh, cry and much more – and I had placed her on the top of my priorities. But as I build an intimate relation with Jesus Christ, He teaches me that He needs to be on top in order for me to grow. He shows me how my human weakness causes me to stumble over and over again. For a long time in my stubborn ways, I did try to defeat my flaws on my own ... and I was not successful. But with His strength and teaching, I hope overcome everything ... but first, I need to place Him on the top of my priorities ... and that I know to be true.
However as I study to be His follower ...to be His disciple ... to take up my cross ... I pray that it is in His will that I may continue to love and care for the little girl who shown me the way to my Redeemer.
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I wonder if it's a good thing for you to feel this way or not...but of course it's a good thing since you learned that the only Rock you can lean on is God...but at the same time I know your heart is aching...
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