Definitions of Love

Do you ever have days when you feel like you are on top of the world and then drop into the deepest abyss of the ocean? That is me ... on an emotional rollercoaster. For three days straight ... I thank God for the good times and I ask Him to give me strength to stand firm in a typhoon of sorrow. This is my chronicle...

Friday
This was the day that I gave Chica a gift with meaningful card. It took me a long while to find the right words for this card because I wanted it to be perfectly sincere without exaggeration. Ironically, I was blind when it comes to proofreading my own work ... oops! Regardless of my mistake, I felt great joy ... a Kodak moment if you know what I mean. Even before I gave her the gift, I was really happy that Chica decided to hang with me.

That night I had dinner with a friend that I have not seen for over half a year. We talked nonstop for almost 3 hours ... and we still need more time, but both of us were worn out. During that conversation, I told my friend about recent events and she told me that she is happy to see me in love ... I paused and looked around ... shocked ... I did not know what to think ... can I be???

Afterward I meet up with my NJ friend ... the one who is getting devoice (there, I finally wrote it – I was hoping that this will not come true, but it did). She was there when I needed support. Now, I’m there to help and support her in anyway that I can ... she is like family. That night, we talked for many hours.

Saturday
My NJ friend wanted to repaint some of the rooms in her house ... to change and to move on. With only few hours of sleep, we started early...

I could only imagine what she is going through ... it was really hard for me to watch a friend in such pain, such sorrow ... and I cannot do a thing but to just be there for her. At one moment, she broke down ... so heartbroken, so fragile ... in so much pain. The rain may put you in a sad mood ... but nothing can compare to those tears ... tears that can melt the strongest of all hearts. While she was crying on my shoulder, I kept my tears in and all I can say to her is that I will pray for you. May God give her strength to stand tall again.

That evening, I was grateful that one of her oldest friend came by to help. Authentic home-cook Malaysian food ... that cheered everyone up. With others accompanying her, I got a chance to slip out of the house and tried to savage my weekend getaway trip ... which seems to be in a limbo.

I was supposed to leave that night, but I stayed to make sure that she is OK. I worked till I crashed on my air mattress ... both physically and emotionally exhausted.

Sunday
Woke early ... I offered to drive my NJ friend to other close friends, so they can accompany her ... but she decided to stay. We did a little more work and then I left straight for Church.

At Church, I was so physically and emotionally exhausted that I was ready to crack. I let a few tears flow when I heard All in All ... a song that always hits me hard. Then I heard my angel sing ... which brought me comfort ... she is for real, she can really sing.

So ...
So, what does this all mean ... well, for me, life is a funny thing. There is great joy and great pain in this world ... I just did not expect them come back to back. Now, the word love has such a deeper meaning to me ... love is utterly unselfish. I know because I keep on trying to be a better man. I strive to give my time ... my energy ... my heart ... to bring a moment joy to another person.

(4) Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. (5) It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. (6) Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. (7) It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
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(13) And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

1 Corinthians 13: 4-7,13 NIV