Yuck

Yes, it’s cold and rainy for many days ... and there are more to endure till the end if this week. It’s glumly and boring for most people, but I’m feeling fine. I refuse to let my environment control my mood ... and furthermore, I’m OK with last weekend’s tragedy. I did my best, humanly possible and I leave the rest to God ... I have faith in Him.

I have faith in Him ... that phrase seem surreal to me as I type it ... but I actually do. I’ve change ... not dramatically, but I’ve changed ... even my friends said so ... I am happier. I remember a while back, I was talking to my best bud (who is a strong Christian) on how to remove all my worries, my grief (I was in a slump at that time). He told me that is easy ... trust God. Why worry about things that we have no control over ... God will ultimately have the last word...

For all you Christian out there that is commenting on this blog, I need to bluntly tell you that I’m not a Christian. Big surprise? Yep, I’m not ... and you may as why not? My answer is that my heart is there ... I believe ... but I need time to finish reading the Bible. And why do I need to finish the whole Bible? My answer is that I need time ... time to let the seed grow ... to learn and understand ... to walk the path ... to be a real Christian. Don’t worry, I will get there ... that I‘m sure of...

So ... why did I title this blog Yuck? Well, with cooler weather and everyone being sick around me ... I think I’m sick too (yes, I joined the club!). I can feel it starting in the back of my throat ... yuck ... Time for me to see the doctor and sleep early. But before bed, I think I will continue with my reading.