Family Struggles

Warning ... this is not upbeat ... so if you are not in too great of a mood, then you may want to save this for another day.

My family ... looks great from the surface ... but if you look deeper, we are just like every other family who has problems. I have known this for a very long time ... since I’m part the family ... and maybe part of the problem? During every vacation/holiday when my family get stuck together under one roof top or in one car ... the unresolved problems naturally pop out.

We are people pleaser ... and very indecisive ... a very dangerous combo ... to the point that drives each other nuts. Everyone has their own agenda, but we bent over backward to do what other people wants. But what if everyone wants something different ... now that is a real conflict of interests. And since everyone is “so” indecisive, nothing gets done ... and we are back to square one ... frustration is what I call it.

Sometimes ... especially during vacations/holidays ... I just want to take a break ... from everything and be happy ... keep it simple ... no major decisions ... and just relax. Honestly, it scares me to take point ... to lead as the head of my family ... but it seem that is what I need to do. I did not do it this year ... but I feel the urge to ... the need to lead. Maybe it is time for me grow up ...

And moreover ... in the distant future ... when I have my own family ... I will have to take the lead ... and I’m afraid ... afraid that I may fail because I’m not strong enough. I normally don’t tell anyone this ... but I draw a lot of strength from people who are close to me. I guess it is one of God's plans ... for us to have fellowship ... to live to together as one. So, I hope to find balance...

Movie Marathon

How many movies can you watch in one day? ... At my rate ... 5 per day ... about 2 hours each = 10 hours of movies. For a long time, I stop watching the latest releases ... I usually do movie marathon every so often ... but this year, my focus has shifted ... and movie does not have the same affect on me. Read on to see why. BTW, I’m watching a movie while I’m typing this.

It is the end of the year and it is time for all of us (at least me) to reevaluate what had happen over this year ... 2005 ... and I can assure you that a lot has happened ... good and bad ... well ... more good – I have been blessed. That is why movies do not give me the same entertainment thrill as before ... now I prefer real life. I use to live a dream world ... I’m a dreamer ... and sci-fi is my favorite ... and still is, but not the same as before ... if you know what I mean.

So ... what does this all means? .... I tell you what ... it means a whole new world ... a new world that we can create together ... and live. I just hope God have something good install for us. =)

The Eve of Skiing

When it comes to skiing, I’m nuts about it ... the one sport that I try to do every chance I get. Normally, I would avoid skiing during holiday weekend because it is usual packed ... but this year, I went with my Chica and her siblings on Christmas Eve ... on a very warm day ... and it was great!!! To the contrarily of what everyone said, it was not packed ... actually, there was no lines ... and the warm weather made us sweat. The sun was out ... and most importantly, everyone was having an excellent time (^o^)

Relationship

For every relationship, there is a need to communicate... to compromise... and to care for each other. If you know me well ... then you know that I’m usually happy when others are happy. So ... even a small gesture to show that you’re happy means a lot to me.

Frog in Throat

I had another great weekend ... skiing and hanging in the city with Chica ... plus surprise dinner and gift. I was dying to spill the beans ... but I managed to hold it off ... and that was hard!!! ... lol ... especially when I usually tell her everything if anything. (^o^)

After all this excitement ... somehow a frog jumped down into my throat ... coughing and stuffy nose -> usual symptoms of a cold =( ... gotta stay home ... in bed all-day today. But, I feeling much better now ... still some dry coughs. =)

Eureka!

I think I know why I’m so exhausted lately ... I'm burning out!!! (^o^)

I know that hanging with my Chica and staying out late can cause lack of sleep ... but that is not the problem.

Someone made me realize that I’m drained because I never stop thinking ... planning ... etc. I go to bed thinking ... then dream about skiing ... and finally wake up - continuing what I was thinking last night ... and non-stop all day ... until I go back to sleep or when I meet up with Chica.

Alright, brain of mine ... I’m going to stop thinking ... time to turn off the afterburner. I’m going to try to let things roll spontaneously ... and have faith in Him.

Expression

A great deal comes to mind ... but this is the only important thing ...

Life is short ... too short not to keep quiet ... so said what is on your mind ... and there is no time like the current moment ... especially when you love someone.

I still got a lot to learn in a short amount of time ... I pray that He blesses us with His love and continue to guide us ...

Karaoke

An excellent way to learn to read Chinese ... singing will come later. (^o^)

Everybody, Anybody, Somebody, & Nobody

By Charles Osgood

There was a most important job that needed to be done,
And no reason not to do it, there was absolutely none.
But in vital matters such as this, the thing you have to ask
Is who exactly will it be who'll carry out the task.

Anybody could have told you that Everybody knew
That this was something Somebody would surely have to do.
Nobody was unwilling. Anybody had the ability.
But Nobody believed that it was his responsibility.

It seemed to be a job that Anybody could have done.
If anybody thought he was supposed to be the one.
But since Everybody recognized that Anybody could
Everybody took for granted that Somebody would.

But Nobody told Anybody that we are aware of,
That he would be in charge of seeing it was taken care of.
And Nobody took it on himself to follow through,
And do what Everybody thought that Somebody would do.

When what Everybody needed so did not get done at all,
Everybody was complaining that Somebody dropped the ball.
Anybody then could see it was an awful crying shame,
And Everybody looked around for Somebody to blame.

Somebody should have done the job
And Everybody should have,
But in the end Nobody did
What Anybody could have.

Snow Day

I have not taken off for snow day ... not for a very long time. I feel like a kid ... home from school. =)

12 hours plus sleep ... afternoon exercise ... and completing a big chunk of the to-do list ... just what the doc order.

Once again, I can see my desk. =P

Long Day

It’s Monday ... it’s snowing outside ... and I’m so tire. I think I read some more (on Luke 11) and then hibernate for 12 hours (as suggested by my Chica). I think will feel better tomorrow after an early morning excise. =)

Oh ... I forgot to mention the movie The Miracle Box (2004) from this past weekend ... is very touching (~~>.<~~)... highly recommended (and yes, I’m a sap when it comes to kind of movie). =P

Crazy Time Management

I think I’m getting younger everyday ... I wanna have just have fun and drop all my responsibilities. However ... I got bills, rebates (from Black Friday), stuffs to fix and install, a million pet projects, hanging out with little sister, etc. ... and yet, I usually manage to do something else ...

Another crazy weekend. =)

My Chica

She is sooo cute!!! (^o^)


BTW ... I ate a whole box of cereal for dinner ... hehe =P

Dark Clouds

"Hey mom, what if I went on vacation with ..."

The mood of the room suddenly turns cold ... like dark clouds just came in ... getting ready for a storm ... a terrifying thunderstorm. I have not seen not look on my mom’s face since something really bad ... and world war III is about to start.

Thanksgiving Weekend

This year, I got a lot to be thankful for. I feel like God has blessed me with everything I needed and wished for.

I have the privilege to tell the world that my wonderful family loves me and supports me in every aspect ... and I have the pleasure to call my fantastic friends as family because they care so much ... and I have the honor to call Chica my girlfriend --- a sweet, gentle girl with a pure heart of gold filled with love. =)

This weekend, I had a great fest with old friends ... ate like a piggy ... turkey and everything; received two awesome gifts from Chica ... one was homemade – very creative ... and the other was tasty – very special ... she never cease to surprise me (^o^); gone crazy over Black Friday again ... I stayed up for 35 hours before I crashed on my bed; went upstate for skiing ... I’m so happy that Chica and siblings like it too; and finally hung out at the mall till closing ...

I’m very thankful ... not just for the weekend ... but for my life. Thank you God.

Let it Snow

I cannot wait till we go skiing!!! Please, let it snow \(^o^)/

21 Days

I’m back! with new eyes ... witnessing a whole new world.

Week 1

Thank you God ... what a spiritual week it had become. As a student of Jesus’ words, I learned a very important lesson ... the true meaning of unconditional love ... from His sacrifice for the love of His Father and for the love of everyone. I believe that is the key for all relationships ... with family and friends and above all, with Him. For better or worst, unconditional love will endure all trials.

This week, I consulted with Him extensively ... gathered up my strength from Him ... took a leap of faith ... and let the truth set me free. I expected nothing and gained everything. I pray that He bless off this new relationship with Chica. It would my greatest honor to make her happy.

In addition, I finally got a taste of peace ... something I had been longing for many years.

Week 2

Coincident or faith? ... I believe it is faith. I do not know what God has planned for me, but coincident events happen for a reason. When Chica first came into my life, my gut was telling me that it will be a difficult path to walk if I so choose to pursue ... and at times, it was very difficult.

But gradually, I learned lean on God ... and He gave me the strength to walk tall ... and the fear and stubbornness in my heart slowly melted away. Granted that I do not know what is yet to come, but I know that I have started down on the right path. I hope to walk alongside with Chica ... and I pray that He will always be there to guild us.

Week 3

Every so often, I find comfort in Jesus’ words. Now, I just need to remind myself of those Words at all times ... and let Him guild me.

Opening new doors is very scary ... and yet extremely exciting. I think I went a tad overboard with the surprises with week ... but I loved every moment of it. Right now, I believe that God has blessed me with a gift that I can never repay. Thank You for everything.

Fear Unfound

This morning, I woke up thinking of one song ... You Are My All In All ... I was singing it in my head while I was under my warm blanket on my bed.

Then, first thing in the morning, I went to have a heart to heart talk with my mom ... about me following God. I was scared ... but when I finally got it off my chest, I was relieved to hear that my mom will not stand in my way. She believes that if it is good for me, then it is good thing. I thank God for unconditional love ... from Him and from my mom.

Tail Spin

I know that this challenge will come sooner or later ... I was hoping for later. But now, it blindsided me ... I was not even suppose to even bring up this issue ... but stupid me.

I need some time to meditate. My head is spinning ... my hamster is going overtime and running extra laps. Maybe it is a blessing that all my plans are canceled ... giving me more time to rest. But I’m tire of thinking ... I feel like I have been running in circle for the past few weeks ... living a lie ... it is so not me.

There is no logic ... and yet fiber in my body is telling to me take a leap ... a leap of faith. Only if I have some more patient. I pray that He is guiding us.

To be or not to be

A little over 2 weeks ago, I wrote (here in this blogger) that in my heart, I believe in God ... that He will save me ... and I wanted a year time frame to enhance my knowledge by reading the whole bible...

But now I think I need to push up the time table...

However, I’m afraid (or more like terrify) to announce my faith to the world ... and to be more precise, the fear is in friends and family, especially my family. They all know about this ... but I believe that they think this is a passing phase ... and I'm not sure how they will react if I officially announce that I believe ... I’m really scared - just like a little kid. And no, it is not a phase for me ... it is a new life. I think about God everyday ... He is part of my life now.

In spite of this, I’m naive when it comes to details, rules and culture of the Church. That is one of the primarily reason that I originally wanted more time ... to learn. Human society (for most people) will not accept a person’s word ... they want proofs. And since I do not know everything (or most) ... they will claim that I am a non-believer.

So ... I need some advices ... any comments are welcome.

Taking vacation to work

So much to do in so little time ... where does the time go ... certainly not for sleeping ... ”yawn” (@_@)

Foliage Trip Highlights

During my hike, I wanted to write everything down and tell the world ... but that will be too much detail. So I figure that each picture (more in the gallery) is worth a thousand words and I will just comment here about some exiting moments =)

Day 1
It started gloomy, cloudy, wet, and in a series of traffic jams in NYC ... all depressing. But as I drove upstate, I could see dark clouds behind me and clear sky in front. It felt like I’m entering a whole new world ... a world back to nature. I smile as I listen to my Sarah Mclachlan – Afterglow Live CD as I drove. I did a lot of thinking too...

I remember I got all excited when I got to the Catskill ... I wanted to scope out everything. Immediately, I started to take lots of photos ... went on a short hike ... saw colorful trees, listened to the waterfalls, hung over cliffs and watched an inspirational sunset. Yes, I stuck out over a ledge to see how far I can go without falling off – crazy me. I stayed till night fall ... also wanted to go on the unmark trail to see the lakes ... but it was getting cold and I was all alone. All in all, it was a splendid day.

Day 2
That afternoon, the whole gang was eager to check out Kaaterskill Falls, the tallest in NY. It was raining, but that did not stop us from hike up slippery rocks. When we got there is, we took lots of photos ... and some us crossed the stream to climb up to the next level of the falls.



I actually slid across on one of the giant rocks covered with wet moss ... yiks! ... I stopped (within inches) from falling in the cold rushing water ... my heart almost jumped out of my chest. When I finally reached the next level, I got soaked from standing next to the waterfall.



Afterward, we tried to go hiking by the lakes ... but the fog was sooo thick, we cannot even see what is in front of us. So ... we went back to the house for a BBQ (under the canopy) ... grazing down food, more food, and even more food ... we were stuffed. Next, in front of a warm fireplace, we played the game, Taboo, till 1 AM ... very funny and exciting as everyone struggles not to repeat any words on the card.

Day 3
I woke early, took a shower, got out of the house before 9:00AM ... and drove all the way back ... just in time for Church.

So, I had a great time ... rain or shine, I thank God painting a master piece ... it’s also fun to get away =)

Preview

I’m a bit tire right now ... I will post the details of my weekend foliage trip soon =)

New Toy!

Just got my new used car! ... can’t wait to play with it ... \(^_^)/

Nice Day

For a walk in the park ... yea (^o^)

Overloaded Stack

I guess it is just being me ... I love to help everyone else. I keep on doing everyone’s tasks ... even if they did not ask me. “Sure, I will help you research it ... sure, I will show you how to ... sure, I will get you those files ... sure, I will fix it – or better yet, I will make it better.” For work, especially for friends, and ironically not so much for family because I’m helping a stranger. And can you blame my mom for wondering why sometimes I’m so tired. I wanna please everyone, but I gotta stop to take care of my list of tasks. So ... for me, less blogging and more focusing on the eight ball. Don’t worry, I will do what I’ve already said yes ... but no more pet projects for the time being.

However, I will still wanna hang =P

Monster Slayer

I’m a knight in white armor ... a monster slayer!!! Well ... not really ... but, I did manage to drive the green-eyed monster back into his dark cave. Now, all I need to do is play a lullaby to put this creature to sleep ... and a high power laser fence with multiple missile turrets would be nice ... hehe ;)

Blue Sky

It good to see the sun again ... after 8 days of rain, we all can finally see the blue sky with rays of warmth from high above. This makes me smile =)

Off topic ... I realize that this blogger getting personal ... it is my journal, my feelings, my views, my inner self ... etc. So, please don’t be shock ... I’m still me. This is a message for my guests and friends who do not know me that well. And as for my closest friends, I believe this only confirms what you already know ... plus a little more – stuff that I did not post on the forum – my sanctuary (hey guys, remember the valentine posting ... hehe).

Back to the topic ... yesterday’s sunny day was suppose to be a frustrating day for me ... but for one reason, I was actually at peace for most of the time. And that one reason is that I let go ... I let go of my tight anal control ... along with my worries and frustrations ... to God. Moreover, I’m not just saying this to “impress people” or whatever ... it is a fact. Stuff happens ... and we need to do whatever we can do ... and the rest is up to the Big Guy.

For example (a very minor one), I lost my hands-free headset for my cell yesterday. I looked for it everywhere ... and asked everyone “have you seen it?” Normally, this will really bug me all day, but ... I let it go. I told myself it will turn up later or I will just have to get a new one – basically, don’t worry. Later that night, my younger cousin gave me a new headset ... a better one ... apparently, his family had recently purchased a few extra headsets (on sale) from online. So, all is well ... there was no need to worry. This is a good example of what the Church addressed today:

(27) Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? (28) "And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. (29) Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. (30) If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? (31) So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' (32) For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. (33) But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. (34) Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Matthew 6: 27-34 NIV

Furthermore, I thank God for answering my prayers ... I’m glad to see my friend finally simile and laugh.

Now, what should I do with my purple toes? ... =P

Hanging out

I had fun (^o^), even when I’m sick. So, I wonder if I nailed my membership into an excusive girls club after completing my initiation. =DDD

Ah Choo!

sniff, sniff I hope to beat this bug by this weekend ... I’m popping those pretty pink pills in like candies (yes, they’re hot pink). ah choo! ... I don’t like taking meds, but I need get well before the weekend ... I cannot go around getting all my friends sick too, now can I?

sniff Sometimes I wonder if the side effects of meds are worse than the symptoms of the disease ... I was so dizzy today at work, I almost fell down a flight of stairs ... I guess I should not take the phrase deadline so literally. (@_@)

Yuck

Yes, it’s cold and rainy for many days ... and there are more to endure till the end if this week. It’s glumly and boring for most people, but I’m feeling fine. I refuse to let my environment control my mood ... and furthermore, I’m OK with last weekend’s tragedy. I did my best, humanly possible and I leave the rest to God ... I have faith in Him.

I have faith in Him ... that phrase seem surreal to me as I type it ... but I actually do. I’ve change ... not dramatically, but I’ve changed ... even my friends said so ... I am happier. I remember a while back, I was talking to my best bud (who is a strong Christian) on how to remove all my worries, my grief (I was in a slump at that time). He told me that is easy ... trust God. Why worry about things that we have no control over ... God will ultimately have the last word...

For all you Christian out there that is commenting on this blog, I need to bluntly tell you that I’m not a Christian. Big surprise? Yep, I’m not ... and you may as why not? My answer is that my heart is there ... I believe ... but I need time to finish reading the Bible. And why do I need to finish the whole Bible? My answer is that I need time ... time to let the seed grow ... to learn and understand ... to walk the path ... to be a real Christian. Don’t worry, I will get there ... that I‘m sure of...

So ... why did I title this blog Yuck? Well, with cooler weather and everyone being sick around me ... I think I’m sick too (yes, I joined the club!). I can feel it starting in the back of my throat ... yuck ... Time for me to see the doctor and sleep early. But before bed, I think I will continue with my reading.

Hangover

Wow ... what happen last weekend? All I remember is a blur ... I’m gotta to lay off those late nite bloggings. (^o^)

Definitions of Love

Do you ever have days when you feel like you are on top of the world and then drop into the deepest abyss of the ocean? That is me ... on an emotional rollercoaster. For three days straight ... I thank God for the good times and I ask Him to give me strength to stand firm in a typhoon of sorrow. This is my chronicle...

Friday
This was the day that I gave Chica a gift with meaningful card. It took me a long while to find the right words for this card because I wanted it to be perfectly sincere without exaggeration. Ironically, I was blind when it comes to proofreading my own work ... oops! Regardless of my mistake, I felt great joy ... a Kodak moment if you know what I mean. Even before I gave her the gift, I was really happy that Chica decided to hang with me.

That night I had dinner with a friend that I have not seen for over half a year. We talked nonstop for almost 3 hours ... and we still need more time, but both of us were worn out. During that conversation, I told my friend about recent events and she told me that she is happy to see me in love ... I paused and looked around ... shocked ... I did not know what to think ... can I be???

Afterward I meet up with my NJ friend ... the one who is getting devoice (there, I finally wrote it – I was hoping that this will not come true, but it did). She was there when I needed support. Now, I’m there to help and support her in anyway that I can ... she is like family. That night, we talked for many hours.

Saturday
My NJ friend wanted to repaint some of the rooms in her house ... to change and to move on. With only few hours of sleep, we started early...

I could only imagine what she is going through ... it was really hard for me to watch a friend in such pain, such sorrow ... and I cannot do a thing but to just be there for her. At one moment, she broke down ... so heartbroken, so fragile ... in so much pain. The rain may put you in a sad mood ... but nothing can compare to those tears ... tears that can melt the strongest of all hearts. While she was crying on my shoulder, I kept my tears in and all I can say to her is that I will pray for you. May God give her strength to stand tall again.

That evening, I was grateful that one of her oldest friend came by to help. Authentic home-cook Malaysian food ... that cheered everyone up. With others accompanying her, I got a chance to slip out of the house and tried to savage my weekend getaway trip ... which seems to be in a limbo.

I was supposed to leave that night, but I stayed to make sure that she is OK. I worked till I crashed on my air mattress ... both physically and emotionally exhausted.

Sunday
Woke early ... I offered to drive my NJ friend to other close friends, so they can accompany her ... but she decided to stay. We did a little more work and then I left straight for Church.

At Church, I was so physically and emotionally exhausted that I was ready to crack. I let a few tears flow when I heard All in All ... a song that always hits me hard. Then I heard my angel sing ... which brought me comfort ... she is for real, she can really sing.

So ...
So, what does this all mean ... well, for me, life is a funny thing. There is great joy and great pain in this world ... I just did not expect them come back to back. Now, the word love has such a deeper meaning to me ... love is utterly unselfish. I know because I keep on trying to be a better man. I strive to give my time ... my energy ... my heart ... to bring a moment joy to another person.

(4) Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. (5) It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. (6) Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. (7) It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
...
(13) And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

1 Corinthians 13: 4-7,13 NIV

Burnt Out

I have been burning the midnight oil in light of hosting a weekend getaway trip (previous post) ... I’m so exhausted. I can barely keep my eyes open. Too many emails, too many phone calls, too many undecided’s ... hehe ... think I need this getaway trip to getaway from hosting this getaway trip ... ironic? (@_@)

Homework

I’m always a student ... one way or another. Do you even remember what your teacher taught you over an eon ago? Well last night, I was trying to remember math from high school ... matrix projection (a form of transformation) in a 2 and 3 degree realms. I forgot something as simple as dot products (ring a bell? ... hehe) ... back to the text book. It brings back memories of sleeping in class ... (~_~)zz

Worry

I worry a lot ... all weekend and even now, I pray that Chica gets better from being sick. I feel soooo guilty for asking her to all my crazy events ... she even got hurt on one of those events. I cannot help worrying ... and sometimes I blame myself because of my selfishness. I should have cancel dinner on the day that she felt sick ... she was so exhausted that she slept whenever she got a chance ... I should have brought her home, tuck her into bed, and let her rest. I think I have some growing up to do ... to put someone else’s welfare above mine.

Sugar Hype!

I just had a big piece of ice cream cake (vanilla and chocolate with cookie crunchy in the middle) AND the last piece of the chocolate mousse cake (a very big piece of mousse cake with chocolate pudding icing and two strawberries on top) ... hmm, hmm good. You gotta enjoy the little things in life and this is one of them ... I have been very sleepy all day ... but now ... with all this sugar ... I think I can bounce of the walls!!! :P

Maybe I will try switch to from ice cream cake to chocolate mousse cake next year ... I did not know that they are that good (or existed) ... even my family loves it ... good enough for one of them to steal an extra bite from my piece.

Hosting

It is a difficult challenge to host a trip ... lots of emailing and calling ... estimating all the needs of the group ... finding the right house for the right price ... but, at the end I know it is all worth it. I just hope all will join in this venture ... grand mountains, towering trees, velvet lakes, majestic waterfalls ...

Plus One

This weekend was very special for me ... even with bad news flowing around, plans constantly changing and pushing myself to exhaustion, I’m still one of the happiest people in the world. Thanks to great friends and a special person with many surprises, this weekend was a milestone. And moreover, I thanks God for the great weather and opportunities (with challenges) that were presented recently.

Spin

The room is spinning ... oh wait ... it’s just my head ... :)

A Poem from Jerry

I want to share this poem post by Jerry ... it’s a new view for me ... I like it.

My Work

If I should fail to do the work,
Which God designed for me,
In all the world there's not a soul,
To do my job, you see.

Some may accomplish what I could not,
And gather much fame and wealth,
But no other creature which God has made,
Can do my work but myself.

So, however humble my task may be,
And how much tempter to quit,
I'll remember each day as I press along,
That nobody else can do it.

--- Thanks Jerry

Black and White

If this world is black and white, then all our decisions would be soooo... easy ... (and boring). Unfortunately (and fortunately), we live in a gray world ... and a mighty fine line we try to walk on. And then we hit bumps ... that is when I ask Him to guide me.

-------!-------

Moving a Mountain of Paperwork

Finally, this weekend I manage to bulldoze two months worth of bills and errands... for the first time in a very long time, I’m delighted to see the surface of my table ... and I crossed out about 70% of my to-do list (I love doing that).
I hope to be free from chores by this coming weekend ... why you may ask, well ... I got big plans ... actually, I got big spontaneous ideas ... the rest will depend on big guy. :D

BTW, after calculating this month expenditure, I think I need to take money managment 101 too. :P

Unexpected – part duel

I truly did not expect that my message will touch so many people ... but I’m thankful it did ... and I hope it made a difference in someone’s life.

This may sound like a corny proverb, but I believe it is true ... one person can make a difference.

Moreover, I recommend the book - Chicken Soup for the Soul (ISBN 1-55874-920-9) ... and the chapter “A Simple Gesture” as an example to the proverb above.

And for people who never read the Bible (yes, The Book that everyone knows ... but do you?) ... you may want to give it a try ... you may just find what you are looking for.

Everybody can be great ...
because anybody can serve. You
don’t have to have a college degree
to serve. You don’t have to make
your subject and verb agree to
serve. You only need a heart full of
grace. A soul generated by love.
--- Martin Luther King Jr.

4 Gen

Today, my Grandma celebrated her 93rd birthday!!! on a perfectly sunny day on top of the world with 4 generations of family members ... (it would have been 5 generations if baby Lexis was there). This time, since she cannot come out for dinner, we brought lunch to her ... yes, dinner time has become nap time ... I think we revert back to being a young kid as we get older. :P Moreover, super distant relatives and big family drama are included (which is a story of its own ...). Let’s just say that young boys learns the meaning of “crush nuts” when playing rough with young girls. (^o^)

New Light

Redemption ... Grasshopper got a second chance ... mission accomplish ... 2 done, 2 more to go.

With help from the whole family, the moment of unity has nurture to new planes ...

BTW, an angle spoke me last nite ... (^o^)

Light and Water

Grasshopper gratefully received advices from an elder and had great patience ... but time has come to an end ...

Daily Reminder

Be patient (u_u)~ ...
and have faith m(__)m ...

Unexpected

Do you ever focus on what you do not have ... what is missing? Well ... don’t!!! Recent tragic events (yes, more than one) have shown me that life is full of surprises ... some good, some bad. So, treasure the good times now ... be thankful for everything that is good ... and don’t take it for granted because it all can be taken away in one day, one hour, one min, or one sec...

I, for example, have a great family who loves unconditionally, a good home, a bright career with a future, and magnificent friends ... and I’m thankful. And all of that can be taken away in a moment ... literally ... I can just only imagine how my friends’ world come crumbling down to nothing (no details, please). For me, this recent news hits closer to home ... my father was in a car accident today ... and thank God he was not hurt ... I don’t know what I will do if anything happens to him ... he’s my father, he’s priceless.

Sorry I sound so dramatic ... but that’s because I care for my friends and my family.

Yes, life is filled with unexpected bombshells ... remember to be thankful for everything that is good ... and I thank God for all that He has given ... and I pray that He will guide me.

Black Day

Today, I wore all black ... matching my mood – all black. It was supposed to rain hard ... to wash away all my sorrow ... but instead, it rained bird droppings ... on me. At least the dropping was black ... matching my clothing.

Deep Sorrow

I’m sad, very sad. News from yesterday was extremely upsetting. The pain, the suffering ... all I can do was to lie on floor of my room and listen to deep sorrow. No good souls deserve this pain, and yet, it just happens.

For the first time, I turn to the Bible for comfort ... in hopes for an explanation for this tragedy ... and I found that I have a lot to learn.

Being Thankful

Thank God for a good weekend ... the little things in life are worth being thankful :P

Debate

Many of my friends try to convince me to read the New Testimony now and the Old later... but I’m stubborn ... I wanted to go from start to finish ... at least a one year journey. However, the answers that I seek are in the New ... and if I skip to the New, I hope I have the will to go back. So, should I continue or should I skip?

Foot in Mouth

How do you like the taste of you foot? Well, my kinda taste bitter with a touch of fungus ... lol :D Nowadays, I got a big mouth ... big because I rant too much (in speaking my mind) ... and I rant even more when I get nerves ... and for other times, just because... I’m willing to share a lot with people that I trust ... and sometimes I give some people too much credit. There’s always a risk associated with everything ... from how you drive your car to what you say to your friends ... but the real question is, are you are willing to accept the result? And if you ask me, I’m taking a leap of faith ... and I will learn to enjoy the taste of my foot just in case I fall head over heels ^o^

Dancing in the Rain

Dancing in the rain ... well ... hehe ... not me. Woohoo ... everyone who went outside got drenched. It was like playing the game Red Light, Green Light ... heavy rain (look at the car) ... no rain (get ready) ... heavy rain (get set) ... no rain (run!!!) ... heavy rain (quick, close the car door) ... no rain (ahh ... safe).

Time for me to say goodbye to sunny summer days and say hello to the colorful foliage. :)

Off topic ... I just saw this again ... let me re-promote a great play, a great song ... Rent - Season of Love

The Cookie Monster

Hmm, hmm good ... peanut butter chips cookies ... my fav ... so good. Especially when they are fresh out of the oven ... chip still melting as you break the cookie in half. And then there are the siblings ... chocolate chocolate-chip cookies, white chocolate-chip cookies, oath-meal cookies, and butter cookies. Hmm good!!!

Lunch with Boss

It is quite nice to have a non-work related conversion with one of my boss during lunch. We talked about religion, the past, the future, sci-fi, and current events. We both came to the conclusion the mankind still have a lot to learn. I just hope we learn enough not to destroy the plant.

Wax on, Wax off

Grasshopper learns to be patient as the sun sets.

Trust

Got some bad news that can turn your day upside down? Everyone gets them ... and I’m no exception.

As some people may have notice, I have not been much spending time with family and old college friends. So today I had an opportunely to do both. One went great and the other went south.

Today, I got to strengthen my communication bond and trust with my family. I opened up and they did the same. Now, I have new hope in resolving some old issues as a family.

As for my friends, they recently had been trying really hard in pushing me to get a girlfriend ... I, however, did not know how far they were willing to go. I know they meant well and I will always love them like family, but sometimes they can really make your head spins... and my blood boil!

In a previous post, I mention that I did not like when someone falsify information ... such as sending a message under someone else name. Guess what? Deja vu!!! It all started when I did not return call back a city-girl who I barely know, but I know enough that she likes me (bad timing). After 2 days, I did try to call city-girl back to apologize and straighten things out, but no answer. I had also asked a close friend for some personal advices, but she in turn relayed my person confession to my other close friend ... and somehow the news got back to city-girl. This is when things get messy. I finally tried emailing city-girl ... and I got back 2 replies, one nice and the other harsh ... very different in style. My immediate response was harsh (yet proportional) ... BUT that harsh email from city-girl was NOT written by city-girl ... it was one of my friends who was trying to provoke me to take strong action.

Today, my friends confessed to me and I got into a heated argument ... a fight! I wanted to stay mad at them ... and yet, in my heart, I forgave them ... am I strange or what? But, it will take some time to rebuild that trust that we once had.

How many levels of trust have been broken?

76oz. Steak

The Challenge: eat a 76oz. Steak in one hour in one single sitting without any help. I took the challenge and ... fail with success! Now, I can claim that I tried it ... ate about 1/4 and stopped ... and probably will not do it again unless I’m sharing the steak with a group of hungry carnivores. For now, I will be having steak (from my doggy bag) for the next three days ... or sharing with my whole family.

Be Happy =)

Let a little prayer wash away all your grief ... don’t worry, be happy. =)

Virus

Computer virus is what I’m talking about. I keep on getting them from junk emails. Sometimes I wonder if someone is trying to hack my system.

Ticket Hunting

Bouncing from orbitz.com to hotwire.com and every websites in between ... cheap ticket is hard to find ... especially at peak time. I think I wanna see Christmas in HK, but the only available cheap ticket is on or after Christmas. Plus, I need to sync up with my travel buddies ... it will not be fun traveling alone.

Rollercoaster

What a day ... most people thinks that weekends are for relaxing. Well, not for me. I’m recovering at work from all my weekend activates. I do have to admit that I had lots of fun during the weekend ... but lack of sleep is definitely affecting my productively at work. I tried to put a smile on a sleepy face ... but I’m a bit burnt out.

But something did cheer me up at the end of my work day ... a message from this Chica. I like getting messages/calls/emails from friends that I like out of the blue. But then, she told me that the message was written by another person as a joke ... using her name. At that point, I felt a bit violated ... and disappointed. I soon got over that.

After getting home, I got some quality (one-on-one) family time with my mom over dinner. Talked about everything ... past, present, future, friends, work, everything. I felt great...

... great until I went to read my email. Apparently, I was so wrapped up in my little world during the weekend, I forgot to call back someone in a timely manner. I feel bad for being rude.

Now, I really need to go to sleep.

Constant

In the Bible (yes, I’m still reading that “Book”), I learned something new (in Numbers). Regardless of time and place ... if one truly believe in something (with all one’s heart), nothing will change his/her mind. Yes, I know that may seem like a common statement, but believe me when I say (from experience) it is a complex concept. One must have a great deal of patience and faith before committing to difficult path ...

Good time in the Sun

A perfect sunny day for ... Beach, BBQ and Crabbing.

Shopping

Ha ... the boys beat the girl in spending on clothing. I, alone, brought more than all three girls combined.

Confuse

What are feelings for? To take over your logical mind for a spin? To drive you nuts? To make a fool of you when you need to focus? I’m so messed up.

Reciprocate

Very simple ... I will show you my world if you show me yours.

Too Much Fun?

I have been having so much fun this weekend ... I wish I can keep doing this every week, but I need to slow down and tend to my responsibly as a family member. Even my blogging had taken a lot of my time. So, don’t mind me if I step away for a little while ... but I will keep on living to the fullest.

Faces with Names

Finally, I got to know the Fellowship at Sunday’s BBQ. For weeks, I have been wondering what their names are ... but now, it is nice to see familiar faces and call them by their name.

Off Trail

Another beautiful day for hiking (Saturday - thank God for that) ... going off trail and getting lost ... which was exhilarating. You are probably saying that I nuts, but we must get lost in order to find ourselves ... to find what nature is all about. Plus, as a big bonus, I found a girl that as more stamina than anyone I know. Ah, I think I found my extreme hiking partner ... or better yet, my sparring sport partner ... I love a good challenge...

Tone Deaf

I hum, but never sing in public. I never, ever sing karaoke ... till now (Friday). My very first time and I need A LOT of practice. I’m surprise that I actually sung ... I do not think any outside my family have ever heard my sung ... especially with a microphone. I wonder if others consider my singing as a blessing or a curse :?

Hit the Bed

It’s worth it to use vacation days for sleep. I’m such a happy camper after a good night of sleep. If I’m happy, other will be happy too ... it’s contagious. =)

Shock Therapy

Just got back from defensive driving course ... and the instructor acted just like a drill sergeant in a boot camp – using shock therapy – trying to break you by using lots of sarcasms and in your face questions. He did bring up some good points...

Instructor asked:
What is the price of your passages (mommy, daddy, sister, brother, best friend, etc)?

Most people replied:
Priceless, irreplaceable, one of a kind, God’s creation...

Instructor asked:
Then what did you do to keep your Priceless cargo safe? Did you at least read the driver’s manual and memorize the procedures for all the emergency situations? During a crisis, you will need to react in a split second.

Most people replied:
No.

Instructor asked:
So ... what is your definition of Priceless?

Did you do everything in your power to keep your passengers safe? Their lives are in your hand.

You Are My All In All

This song by Dennis Jernigan has special meaning to me ... I don’t know why, but since the first time I heard it and even nowadays, I feel very emotional.

Here is a sample sung by my favor Christen group, Point of Grace.

[Window Media] [Real]

You Are My All In All
lyric
^
You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all
Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord, to give up I'd be a fool
You are my all in all

Taking my sin, my cross, my shame
Rising up again I bless Your name
You are my all in all
When I fall down You pick me up
When I am dry You fill my cup
You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name

You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all
Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord, to give up I'd be a fool
You are my all in all

Taking my sin, my cross, my shame
Rising up again I bless Your name
You are my all in all
When I fall down You pick me up
When I get dry You fill my cup
You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
*-*-*

Change of Goal

My best bud has invited me to his Church in Brooklyn and they have accepted me with open arms. However, my dilemma has not been solved. Apparently, my focus still drifts ... it is not the location that I should be concerned about, it is my mind ... I pray that I get the discipline that I need. Only time will tell.

Keep Thou self Clean

Well, I wish my car can clean itself ... but since I’m the master of my car, I shall clean it. Surprisingly, I find washing my car to be quite peaceful ... I can think clearly and get a good workout. It is almost like meditation.

Got Shocks?

Mountain Biking ... on black diamond trails ... definitely not for the causal road rider. You would think that it would wise to clear any obstacle on the trail ... but no, they added some ... logs laying across the trail ... everyone must pop a wheelie and hurdle over them. The up hill climb is a challenge (and a workout), especially when you are riding on sand ... with your back wheel spinning with little or no traction. Moreover, there are tree roots everywhere ... you will bounce till your but is sore ... got shocks? So, who wants go back for more? Me.

Burned Out

So much to do in so little time. Will post later ... for now, need sleep.

Growing Younger

For this past two months, I have been growing younger ... is this possible? Staying up all nights, hanging out late, watching cartoons, having fun till I drop ... and I do not want this to end. I need warp speed, Scotty!

Eeny, Meeny, Miny Mo ...

Which Church should I go to? I just go word from my best bud (who’s always busy) that I can try out his sanctuary in Brooklyn. However ... I still want to go back to her Church. Should I start planting my roots here or there? The only answer that I got from friends and Fellowship members is “Only time will tell.” I’m brewing up a storm between my guts and my heart.

For now, I think my guts will win ... at least I can hang with my bud and try out his place. So, please be still my heart ... it is a marathon, not a sprint.

Some Assembly Required

I’ve recently finish reading Exodus from the Bible. Wow, the instructions for building the Tabernacle is so detailed (Exodus 25 to 31). As an engineer, I’m tempted to map out those instructions on paper. However, if I want to finish reading the whole Bible (and detailed footnotes) in less than a year, I will have to keep up with the pace. I may go back and revisit those chapters afterward. I’m only 7% into the book ... still a long way to go. Pray that His words will teach me patience and perseverance.

On a different note, my Church hunt has taken me in a full circle. I’m surprise to hear others who had supported me to look elsewhere are now telling me to go back to her Church! So far, her Church suits me the best ... but do I have the discipline to focus??? I believe I could, but I hope I'm not lying to myself. Anyhow, I will consult with the rest of my Fellowship tomorrow. Peace out.

Outside the Box

Ah, what a beautiful day ... I wish I’m out there instead of at work in a tin box. I’m so tire ... only had 4 hours of sleep ... and I’m surprise that I managed to wake up to do my super early morning jog ... and get to work on time. Nevertheless, today is a great day for outside activities ... I would like to take a nap under the shade of a tall tree. Maybe I should since I have over 5 weeks worth of vacation days (not counting sick/personal days). Then again, I think I would like to save those days for a Euro tour or somewhere exceptional ... and I just need to find someone crazy enough to join me.

Spares / & X Strikes

After one and a half years of hunting for a pair of elusive bowling shoe, I finally caved in and went to a Pro shop to pick a pair up. Ironically, the Pro shop has more choices and sizes at a cheaper price than sporting goods stores ... should have done it a long time ago. Tonight is the first of many (weekdays) $2 late-night bowling nights ... my buds are starting a trend/a new regular event ... And the competition is steaming up ... nooo, lost to a double strikes in the tenth frame ...

A Wish Granted

During Saturday’s Hong Kong Dragon Boat Festival in NY, I was wondering what it would be like to be in a race like that. Well, I got my wish. My friend (and coworker) generously invited all his colleagues out to his place to go canoeing and kayaking in the river/bay. Great experience ...

Now I want all my friends to try it out ... I think they will like it too. At least it will build great upper body strength ... but I think it is fun too ... especially in a group where we can race!

A Little Miracle

At the Fun Town Amusement Pier in Seaside Park, I witness a little miracle. I was at the one of those “prize grabbing” machines ... and I asked God for a sign ... a sign to show me that what I’m current doing is right ... to be more precise, on how I’m handling the situation with a girl that I’m trying to pursue. Well, I got my answer. Not one ... not two ... but three red crabs get picked up ... all at the same time on my very first try!!! To my disbelief ... my heart skipped a beat ... I would not have believed if I have not seen it with my own two eyes (and with glasses). What does this mean ... What is the chance in this happening to me? Well, I take it as an extraordinarily good sign ... and I pray that He will guide me.

Astounding Weekend

If you know me, then you know that I like to plan. But for these past few years, life has taught me that the best things in life are unexpected ... it is the little moments that count the most. So now I try to roll with the waves. This weekend is a classic example.

For the whole week, I have been asking people to come and see The Hong Kong Dragon Boat Festival in NY. All said no or canceled but one spontaneous friend who managed to squeeze me into her plans – which made me simile. I expected a hot day, but it was very hot and humid day ... and I’ve parked on the opposite side of the lake (oops!). We were drench in sweat just from walking to and from the race... but I had a good time. The dragon boat race looks cool, but I think it would be cooler if my company would sponsor us to participate in the race! Then we would have something real to cheer about.

Next, I hopped over to NJ for a spontaneous BBQ and Beach with old college friends. I would love to bring the girl who came with me to the race earlier that day ... I feel bad for dragging her out to the park on such a hot day ... I think I owe her some fun time – and my friends really knows how to be spontaneous and have fun ... but she had plans for the rest of the day ... next time then.

Anyway, the BBQ they host are the only one that includes yummy food, a basketball shootout, and a water fight (with a hose!). We act more like kids than young professional engineers (and most of them are married and with house of their own). That is why birthdays are just a number, not who we are. Sometimes I think we get goofier as we get older.

Afterward, we went to the Beach at Seaside Park. It was nice and cool since it was late afternoon when we got there – with the summer sun slowly setting. We went wave hopping and played “bury a friend in the sand” ... and it was my turn this time. We had so much fun and laughter ... which is great for the soul.

Finally we ended the day with food and games at the pier next to the beach. The food was boardwalk classic – clam and oyster bar, good old hot dogs, nuke hot wings, greasy cheese steaks, and fries still dripping with oil – a.k.a. good old American heart-attack food. Then, games, arcades, and stuff animals prizes. More to continue...

I’m Naked!

I was completely naked in front of strangers in a room filled with bookshelves. Across the room was a girl on a wooden bench staring at me. I not sure who was she, but she looked familiar ... In this awkward situation, I walked around the room with absolutely no fear ... This was my dream ... I think this blogger has open me up to a whole new level of confidence. What do you think? Are you going to go all Freudian on me?

Telling the Truth

Telling the truth is the easiest and hardest thing to do – a paradox. It is easy because it is the truth, but hard because it has consequences ... at least in human society. If this is utopia, then telling the truth would not be a problem ... because everything is perfect. This remind me of a song by Savage Garden:

The Animal Song
partial lyrics
^
...
Animals and children tell the truth, they never lie
Which one is more human
There's a thought, now you decide
...
^^^

So, as human being, we learn to lie and lie well. Some may even say we are born to lie.

That is why I adapted this policy a few years ago – “to tell the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth, so help me God.” Yes, I know this statement comes from the witness stand, but it is plain, simple, and to the point. If everyone adopted this policy, then there may not be a need for court rooms. And no, I’m not perfect ... but I will never stop trying to strive to better oneself. Sometimes, I will even go so far as to being blunt ... which is very risky and the consequence can be daunting. I do it willingly not to be a maverick (I really hate the feeling of being an outcast) ... I do it because it sets me free and gives me peace.

May the truth set me free.

Sleep Depravation

How much sleep do you need? I need about 7 to 9 hours ... but this week, I had an average of 5 hours per day. Ironically, I feel better than usual ... more alive. I have been staying up late … writing bloggers and emails (some very long ones --- most likely boring the person to death). Moreover, my hunt for a new Church was unsuccessful ... but I still have some more options to go. I’ve talked with a lot of people and all of them are pointing to toward the city. Anyhow, my body is about to crash ... but my mind is still spinning faster than a hamster wheel (inside joke – hamster power). So ... have a good night everyone.

WooHoo! My First Comment!

Thank you, Apostle John. Your recent blog (A Christian Minister's Journal > Sex -- It's one of my favorite hobbies) brought me laughter ... and conveyed a great message. You really got a way with words.

Fortune Cookie

A little while ago, I got a fortune cookie with this message:

Two important decisions shall be made by you soon.

Well, I think it is time.

1. I shall read the Bible in whole in about a year (hopefully before my five years anniversary). During this time, I shall not ask to date This Chica (girl) again. Afterward, what ever happen shall happen.
2. I shall fine another Church to go to, one that does not pose a conflict of interest (one that This Chica does not attend). If not, I believe the Fellowships and friends shall be adequate for the duration of my study/journey. Afterward, anything is fair game.
   

Footnote:

I’m making a commitment in seeing this through without outside pressure. I need to seek God on my own terms.

What happen was that I was trying to pursue This Chica. Then I found out that she is a dedicated Christen. That posed a problem for me ... which ended up in us being “friends” (got rejected many times) --- which is fine with me since I still need to get to know her --- need time. However, she is a catalyst for me. For the past few years, I had been seeking answers to my life’s questions ... joined Fellowships and made many good Christen friends – one whom is my best friend (no secret lied between us). Recently, I got a Study Bible with her help ... pushing me forward. Of course, all my Christen friends are cheering for me, like I just won a million dollar lotto. =)

I’m also going to her Church, which is perfect for me since it is a Chinese-English Church on the island (closer than city Churches). The English session is gear to the youth – which makes the topics much more interesting for me. They are also willing to use technology to enhance their program ... making it easier for everyone (like me). Moreover, they have a great musical ensemble – playing music that can touch the soul. So why do I need to leave such a great place? Well, it just hit me just last Sunday and there was more to the reason why I left so abruptly that day (read previous blog) ... read on...

It was when a friend of This Chica showed up that day ... then it hits me. This person never leaves her side, stuck like a love sick puppy (my guess from observation), drove over long distance just to hear This Chica play in the Church’s ensemble. And ... then I realize I was partly there for the same reason as her other obsessed friend. And so, I don’t belong there, even if it is partly for the right reason, it is still wrong and without honor. This Chica is a (very) smart, athletic, attractive person --- which is a great distraction for me. I can not and I will not sink to the level of her other friend.

I need to seek God without an alternative motive. That day, I felt like I was going to burn in Hell if I stay ... after two head on collisions (one above and one below), I had to leave as fast as I can … and then to separate religion from my personal interest. I have consulted with friends and family, from old to young ... and they agreed. Sure, I will still hang with This Chica and get to know her, but not in Church - not in this early stage for me ... and I hope she opens up and accepts me for who I’m.

Acceptance

Do you ever feel like an outsider, surrounded by different groups? Well ... welcome to my life. I’m an American Born Chinese (ABC) --- a.k.a. Twinkies. I know both worlds well, but I’m never truly accepted by either one ... except by a few close friends. I’m what they called, a bamboo --- “two sides not open” --- in between notches. Moreover, there are conflicts from within me ... and I have been looking for a place, a principle, a religion, a group, a person ... that will bring me peace. Now, I’m hoping that the Bible can be my sanctuary. Got to have patience... That is why I’m a bit upset today ... read on...

Today, I felt great ... that is until I went to Church. I’m new to the ways of the Church and so I asked if they usually drink wine (grape juice) and break bread. My new Christen friend said “yes ... but you should just past the tray along since you are an unbeliever.” When she said that, it hits me hard and it hurts. I overreacted and left, but I can’t help feeling that she categorized me as an outsider --- brought back some very bad memories.

Will I be accepted for who I am? ... Will I find peace?

It is true that I do not know much and I do not claim to be a Christen, but I’m committed in reading the whole Bible and in trying to see the light ... and when the time comes, what ever happens shall happen. Anyway, in a little while, I will back to normal and this will be in the past. Afterward, I will like an ass for writing this and I pray to have better control over my emotions.

Solo Summer Hike @ Harriman State Park

It was such a nice day and I couldn’t let it go to waste ... since I’m solo, I changed the hike time from afternoon to early morning. I wanted to capture some photos of a sunrise (with red ambient clouds in deep blue sky) from one of the outer cliffs, but that means a 2 hours drive plus a 3 hours hike before dawn --- which I did not do.

Instead, I woke up at 5AM, got there by 8AM, and discovered some new challenging tails. Up and down over 4 peaks ... crawled on all fours just to keep from falling off the side of the mountain.

It’s good to be back in nature ... to see where heaven meets earth.

Happy Milestone

My CRV
hits 30k ...

Butai

Butai, a japanese restaurant near Union Square - Manhattan, NY – good food, small portions (unlike typical American restaurant), great for hanging out, New York City pricing.

After four hours of sleep last night, I’m going to keep this short. I’m glad that I have inspired my friend to start his blogger site on Xanga. Now I will have to update my friendster account.

Good nite :)

nuts! nuts! nuts! … what a bummer ... a detour.

I was praying for good weather for another grand summer hike this weekend ... and I got my answer >>> the cold front hits, breaking the heat wave >>> highs in the low/mid 80s >>> lots of sun and puffy clouds --- absolutely splendid weather. So, what is wrong with that?

Well ... everyone (including ones that said yes to the hike) – bailed!!! Yes, this shows that life is a funny thing.

Now I will have to decide if I’m going to [1] crash an “End of the Summer” lounge party in the New York City (the adventurous side of me), [2] stay home and read the Bible (the angel side of me), or [3] do something in between (BBQ, card games, etc. – the typical side of me).

Time to be spontaneous ... I got the feeling that this weekend will be more than I expected.

Life is a funny thing

Ideas, places, and things you would not think you would ever go for will suddenly become your primary objective. You may have some control over the situation (i.e. free will), but a lot of times the situation will dictate your life (i.e. fate). So, instead of controlling my life with an iron fist, I’m learning to adapt to my situation … and enjoy life (i.e. having faith in my fate).

If you told me a few years ago that I will be working in a tin box and going to Church, I would say you are out of your mind. But, as I mention, life is a funny thing.

Seasons Of Love

Seasons Of Love
Lyrics
^
Company :
Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Moments So Dear
Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
How Do you Measure - Measure A Year ?
In Daylights - In Sunsets
In Midnights - In Cups Of Coffee
In Inches - In Miles
In Laughter - In Strife
*
In - Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
How Do You Measure
A Year In The Life
*
How About Love ?
How About Love ?
How About Love ?
Measure In Love
*
Seasons Of Love
Seasons Of Love
*
Soloist # 1 :
Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Journeys To Plan
*
Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
How Do You Measure The Life
Of A Women Or A Man ?
*
Soloist # 2 :
In Truths That She Learned
Or In Times That He Cried
In Bridges He Burned
Or The Way That She Died
*
All :
It's Time Now - To Sing out
Tho` The Story Never Ends
Let's Celebrate
Remember A Year In The Life of Friends
*
Remember The Love
Remember The Love
Remember The Love
Measure
In Love
*
Soloist # 1 :
Measure Measure Your Life In Love
*
Seasons Of Love ...
Seasons Of Love
_*-*-*_


... I love this song ...

Ah ... my first post.

Welcome, please don't mind the mess ... I still trying to unpack as I move in.

I should have started a blog a long time ago. I have alot to say, but no one to listen.

Here is a recent photo from my hike @ Harriman State Park